The Other Side

 Is it better there?

On the Other Side?

Does everything work that didn't before?

Or are you something completely different?

Is there pain? 

Is there sadness?

Do you wish you were still here?

Even with the pain and confusion that tormented you?

Because it's not better here without you.

Here on This Side.

Nothing works like it did before. 

And I'm completely different without you.

I am in pain.

And so very sad.

And I wish you were still here.

But not if you'd still be in pain and confused and tormented.

I can wait till it's my time 

To be with you again.

On the hard days and in the awful moments 

But also on the best days and in the joyful moments

And especially during routine days and in the mundane moments

I will keep my eyes focused on yours.

I will keep my heart connected to yours.

If I close my eyes, I can see you 

Tall and strong and calm

And smiling at me.

A year ago, 

When you died,

You were so far away, 

Just a speck on the horizon

And I was terrified that each day

Would take you farther away from me.

But now I know better.

Every day you get just a little larger

As I get closer to

The Other Side.